The Horror of the Past

the past will hunt you.. whoever said the past should be forgotten and live life for the present is a moron... one way or another ur past will come back to hunt you and it will hunt u real bad.... thus u should always clean up the path and make sure no crumbs are left to guide it back to u...

wwwaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

i feel like im the most boring most pathetic person in the world..if u talk to me right now the only conversation ur gonna get is
1. medicine related - yup if ur not into medicine related stuff like Pedia, OB or the whinings and qualms of a medical clerk/slave then im not ur person
2. boys - yeah the never-ending, since the beginning of time, favorite topic of mine.. boys/men why we love 'em hate 'em and cant live without them... and my neverending search for mr. right which turns out to be mr. MIA for now.
3. my life - my constant complaints in life uber boring booze-filled, lowlife...
that's it!!! its the only thing i could talk about.. even im bored with myself... haayyy
somebody shoot me right now

Hooked Up

yes there were others... i didnt shed a lot of tears, i didnt get oh so depressed... we didnt really became it and it was a one way a thing i liked him he didnt want me... we're still friends but then thats not enough for me so i let go... i thought distance and time can make me forget but again my heart beats with every little message with any little connection.. i guess somehow my heart is still waiting and hoping.. im still hooked up... FUCK!!!

Pre-Hell Week

im dying... im tired... iv focused my energy into too many useless stuff. wasted my time over drama on tv and now im digging my hole to fail...

An Early Chrsitmas Whining

ok its christmas once again.. its usually the time of the year where im super happy with all the shopping and parties and booze all around but then again this year due to my utter brokeness christmas is simply a bullshit situation. please dont give me the "christmas is not just about the gifts.." line i know but im a superficial girl i love gifts either i give it or recieve is the same way for me but how can i do that without money???!!! every year i get poorer and poorer just as the economy is goin down. fuck this life i need a job!! haha well maybe 3 years from now i'll finally earn my own money which im sure will definitely be not enough... here i go again whine whine whine but what can i do this is what im good at right??!!
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all ye rich people!!!

Boys again and again

i've met a lot of perverts like major ones, but surprisingly there are still a few nice guys around but it all ends there... at the end of the day i still go home alone.. no one dares to make the extra leap maybe i am also scared to take it... afraid to share my world with someone.. afraid to give up this so called "single-blessedness"... some are sweet.. some are rich.. some are cute.. some are nice.. some are just plain duh... so what's a girl got to do? am i really waiting for someone or is this really it? i just have to accept the fact that u will never get that ideal person and u just have to deal with it...

Erap's Conviction

lets pretend im still into politics.. still am actually except maybe for the fact that med students are usually apathetic for stuff that doesnt involve "med" stuff or maybe my lack of knowledge and understanding of the law... anyways what can i say i pity erap if only he was smart enough to escape or not stupid enough to believe that the masses can help him through this somehow in this damned government - power and money will always prevail and maybe justice too because he did plunder our money but the thing is i believe one time or another everyone had their fair share of plunder, of graft and corruption but still they're smart enough not to get caught or better yet not get convicted... yes there's proof that we do not look at position and power to get someone convicted like in the US where rich hollywood stars get imprisoned for drinking and driving e.g. like Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan... (is it right to compare them to Erap??hehe) but the thing is convicted or not with the money his gonna return some Php700+ million and mansion where would that money go? will justice really prevail? Or is ths gonna be one of those hot issues that just go away once the media hype goes away? i hope not.. i still believe that our country can rise up from all this and maybe just maybe be the pearl that we truly are...

CURRENTLY FEELING: diplomatic

CURRENT CONDITION: constipated haha